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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
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At last christmas is over....
pizza hut was a havoc on that day.it is more worse than the sembawang recycle centre.everybody seems to rush to do their things i have to stand for 4 damn bloody exhausting hours to do pizza...brr.... and at the end of the day,guess what?i actually have done a total of nearly 1000 pizza on that day...woohoho... can't really imagine doing 1000 pizza on that day but trust me u'll never want to work at that tight place there.but at least i really enjoy mysef there.after the operation hours,linda treat us to some foods and drinks and on top of all wilson,who really make my ass laugh,saying all the odd things.imagine a chinese speaking in malay.haha.i still can't forget what he say with his full expression...
another upcoming event,hari raya and new year,expect to be busier than christmas.dunno why they prefer to eat pizza's at home.i prefer going to other restaurant to have my meal..hahaha... anyway to all selamat hari raya,happy new year and merry christmas and everything...hahha
to you,my special one,you know who you are,hope 2007 will bring you more happiness and shine to your life.evrything seems to be an act on stage right now....
peace from me,yoshi nakamura a.k.a fresto.inc....
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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[Tuesday, December 19, 2006
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finally term test is over.5 hellish paper to sit for and out of the 5 i think i only did well for 2 papers.don't know why i seems to lost concentration on my studies.like bloddy hell...
anyway just wait for the results to determine what i should do next...
holiday is here for 2 weeks.hmmm.thank god i finally finish paying the $200 fine.stupid government.dunno how to make the law.hahaha.and also thank god that i'm finally cured from the accident last 3 weeks.so scary to escape a major accident.luckily the guy didn't report to the police and luckily he didn't notice that i had hit his bumper side car. but i'm so sorry bob,for causing ur footrest and ur body to damage.hahaha.klu aku bei motor nnt aku kasi kau calar body aku..haha
anyway to suhail,happy 18th birthday.habis..budak tu dah legal.confirm gi clubbing nye.hahaha.nnt pass motor,deal race pat och ngan aku k...hahaha....
can't wait for nxt month to go shopping..woohohoho...its been a LONG LONG time since i went shopping.so nxt month gonna satisfied myself and buy whatever i want...hohoho...
shopping at town?hmm...nope gonna shopping at VIVO CITY..hahaha..macam bnyk jer duit eh...haha..also can't wait to watch movie there... dunno what's the fuss people saying that watching movie at vivo is very nice...gonna see the difference...
ok thats all... sayonara yoshi nakamura...
I just wanted to stay with you.I just wanted to feel your breath of grace.I didn't know what to do.I couldn't say anything.When consciousness returned,everything had been washed away by the tide of time, even you.Wish to be given a second chance to prove the sincerity all along,but...
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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[Tuesday, November 28, 2006
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Number of days had gone but my mind is still feeling lost.I've been sitting down,trying to find where the mistake lies and i know i'm in the wrong.How am i suppose to tell you the reason for my action.I know nothing right now can change a thing,nothing can change your mind and your heart.But at least by explaining the facts,maybe and just mabye it can make you understand the situation.
"The last thing i want is for someone to talk about is him" which refers to azri.Why do i mention about him all of a sudden?Coz the day before that i msg you and you didn't reply to my msg.And when i msg you about him you straight away reply back.You trying to get what i mean here?I really don't know what's in your mind and i don't know what's in your heart.I don't know what secrets you've been keeping away from me.I don' teally mind if you don't wanna share things with me coz i know you still didn't trust me that well.Its not that i want to be a third party or a busybody but i'm just trying to help you all that i can.It doesn' matter if i have to sacrifice for a person like you coz i know its worth it.I'm really really shocked by your last msg and it really maes me speechless for days.Its not that i want you to reply to all my msges.Its not what you think.The reason why i pleaded you to reply to my msg is beacause i'm afraid that you will break the friendship in silence.Yeah i know you're not my gf and i don't know whether you regard me as a friend or not.But now everything is done and you ask me to stick to where i stand from the beginning??Sigh...
To stand from the beggining,which means i have to be what i am 6 months back,which is half a year.How am i suppose to pick myself up just like that.How am i suppose to be what i am before 23rd may,the day i know you.How am i suppose to forget everything and act like as if these 6 months are just a stage of an act?
6 months of memories to be forgotten just like that?6 months...Let me tell you what this 6 months means...
I've been seeing you at itas frequently but everytime i saw you,you seems to be down or moody.Your expression caught my attention and out of curiosity,i ask my friend about you.It was really unexpected that you turn out to be my friend's sister schoolmate.What a small world.Without any further,i ask permission from the sister to get your number.I still remember nadirah saying "if you do anything to her,you watch out".Hahaha.Then after 2 days istart msging you and i get to know you as time goes by.Every now and then i start visiting your blog and it really touch me when you mention that sometimes out of nowhere you'll cry in the middle of the night.It kinda reminds me of my pst and from there,i determine to help you to overcome these obstacles of lifes.Util the day i found out that you are with azri,i realise that i was too late.But what i want is to befriend with you,so i kinda ignore that matter.As i get to know you,i realise tou are different from other girls that i've known.You're the first girl to msg me in english and i've to admit that i really hate english to the core.But to keep up with you,i just try to msg you in english,knowing my english is that sucks.My freinds startedd to question me of the change of my style of msging and i told them its all because of you.Till now i still msg eveyone in english.HAHAHA.And also you always have these phrase "sorry for the late reply". I will always smile whenever i read it.I don't know why.Hahahaha...
You always complain bout your lifein your blog and when i try to imagine it,it really tickles me.Haha.To see a petite small little girl feeling lost in the middle of the dessert.Lol.Hahah.Sorry..
The day that i bought the blue rose from you,i'm really really out of my mind coz i don't know to whom am i suppose to give it to.I ask you whether you will accept it if i gave it to you and you said you don't mind it but it feels awkward.I tried to keep the rose alive but after a few days,it died.I don't know why,maybe because my little brother put it inside the freezer.Lol.Sorry.So i promise to "give" it back to you one day..
The day that you told me about the incident between you and azri till late morning,it really reall moved me to see you in that state and i really really cannot accept the fact that azri did it to you.I don't know why i feel so tensed up all of a sudden.I really don' know how to console you at that moment but the story changes when you ask me about my family.You are one of a few people and the first person to know about my past coz i don't really like to share it with others as it will only bring gloominess and hatred to myself.Then you start to share with me your family background and bla bla bla.At the end of the day,i realise that both of us are in the same boat.As time goes by,i tried to win your heart.Even though i know your heart is for someone else but i still say that you are the one and i shouldn't lose hope.
For your birthday,i bought a pendant for you.Thought to include a musical box in it but i have not much time to search for it.But a pity that i couldn't treat you to dinner.Yes,i expect you to be overjoyed or overwhelmed with the present,but you sound really moody that day.I really really dissapoint me for a moment.
He above has His own way in handling things.He's been making my confidence strong all this while and unexpectedly,He changes the whole story just like that.It was really unexpected that this matter would end up a friendship.
All the efforts are wasted.But i don't mind it coz of a girk name Hafizah had teach me how to smile back and show me the other side of the world.She shows me there is someone out there experiencing the life that i had in the past.She's the first girl to ask me to quit smoking,she's the first girl to say my english is not that bad,she shows me that not all girls out there are the same,she's the first person to know my dark side,she's the first girl to give advices to me.So many this and that that its really impossible for me to forgether.Its really really impossible.
So now how am i suppose to pick myself back fro mthe start?Maybe its my own mistake that i forgot my roots,
But what i want really is to have friend like you and i really don't want to break this friendship.Maybe to you its just a small matter but to me, it had an impact in my life.And i'm so stupid enough to cry over this matter.I don't know why.Idon't know whether what you said are just words out of frustration or you really really meant it.Maybe i should just give you space and accept reality.But i just want you to know that if at times if you need a friend,just remember that your friend here is willing to help you out and willing to sacrifice for you.That's a promise from a guy to a girl...
Deep inside my heart,i'm hoping that i would not shed tears for you.But it can't be stop with the heart and mind feeling lost in the sea of dreams.If that is what the called love then its love.If not then its just an infatuation of a lost,sorrow man.
Hafziah Bte Mohamed Salikimen(sorry if i spelled it wrongly),the name that will always be stick to my heart and memories...Forever...
I'm really really hoping to see you wearing the pendant one day...Just maybe it would come true...Or just maybe it turn out to be just another dream in my life...
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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[Monday, November 13, 2006
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Desert Rose, why do you live alone?
If you are sad, I'll make you leave this life.
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand.
The winds of time, you knock me to the ground.
I'm dying of thirst, I wanna run away.
Don't know how to set me free to live.
My mind cries out feeling pain.
I've been roaming to find myself.
How long have I been feeling endless hurt.
Falling down, rain flows into my heart.
In the pain, I'm waiting for you.
Can't go back, no place to go back to.
Life is lost, flowers fall.
If it's a dream, now wake me up.
If it's for real, just kill me.
I'm making the wall inside my heart.
I don't wanna let my emotions get out.
It scares me to look at the world.
Don't wanna find myself lost in your eyes.
I tried to drown my past in grey.
I never wanna feel more pain.
Run away from you without saying any words.
What I don't wanna lose is love.
Through my eyes time goes by like tears.
My emotions losing the colour of life.
Kill my heart, release all my pain.
I'm shouting out loud. Insanity takes hold of me.
Turning away from the wall I can see nothing.
The scream deep inside, reflecting another person in my heart.
All existence you see before you must be wiped out.
Dream, reality, memories, and yourself.
I begin to lose control of myself.
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind.
Nobody can stop my turning to madness.
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart.
Why do you wanna raise these walls?
I don't know the meaning of hatred.
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies.
I only want to hold your love.
Stab the dolls of hate.
Wash yourself with their blood.
Drive into the raging current of time.
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly. "The earth."
Shout and start creating confusion, shed your blood for pleasure.
And what? For love? What am I supposed to do?
I believe in the madness called "now".
Past and future prison my heart.
Time is blind, but I wanna trace my love.
On the walls of time over pain in my heart.
Art of life. Insane blade stabbing dreams.
Try to break all truth now.
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain.
Cannot start to live, cannot end my life,keep on crying.
Close my eyes, time breathes, I hear.
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living outside my walls.
You can't draw a picture of yesterday so you're painting your heart with your blood.
You can't say no, only turning the wheel of time with a rope around your neck.
You build a wall of morality and take a breath from between the bricks.
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them.
You're trying to commit suicide.
You're satisfied with your prologue, now you're painting your first chapter black.
You are putting the scraps of your life together and trying to make an asylum for yourself. You're hitting a hell at the edge of the stage and you are trying to kill me.
I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art Of Life.I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth.
Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live? Do I try to love? In my dream...
I'm breaking the wall inside my heart.
I just wanna let my emotions get out.
Nobody can stop, I'm running to freedom, no matter how you try to hold me in your world.
Like a doll carried by the wall of time.
I sacrificed the present moment for the future.
I was in the chains of memory half blinded.
Losing my heart walking in the sea of dreams.
Close my eyes, rose breathes, I can hear.
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living my life, outside my mind.
Dreams can make me mad.
I can't leave my dream, I can't stop myself .
Don't know what I am.
What lies are truth? What truths are lies?
I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art Of Life.
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth.
Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?
Art of life.
An eternal bleeding heart, you never wanna breathe your last.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still I'm feeling for,A rose is breathing love, in my life...
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I believed if time passes, everything turns into beauty. If the rain stops, tears clean the scars of memory away. Everything starts wearing fresh colors. Every sound begins playing a heartful melody. Jealousy embellishes a page of epic. Desire is embraced in a dream But my mind is still in chaos and..
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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[Monday, October 30, 2006
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dYUVN0DaKxE&mode=related&search=
check this out... Art Of Life by X-Japan,
Considered as one of the best rock songs ever in the history of rock!!!!
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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So lets see...Today is monday,the 30th of october.The last day for me in Bedok pizza hut.For 2 months i've been working there,but within these 2 months,there seems to be a bonding between that place,the people and me.Even though its hard for me to leave but sooner or later i'll have to leave the place.(now i'm not quiting from the job but just transfer to another outlet).2 months of memoriable memories which will always be remembered.
A Big thanks to botak,dayat,jason,auntie soh,zai,imah,atiqa,zali,ramdan,ghafur,iskandar,upu,siew ling,jun,aisha,faisal,firdaus,chun chun(so cute the name i gave to them.,hahaha),chan chan,ren ren,naseer,yaseer,fadzil ganja,bob,fadli,sari,ampai,brother y,henry,wan,sam,bai rokok,jack spider and also those whom i forgot to mention here.As you see,there's a long list of names and of course we are like one huge family,especially during fasting month of ramadhan.you can feel the atmosphere...
like a ship running smoothly into the sea,wish u will be smooth sailing through the world full of obstacles that can't be seen..... Feeling the rose of thorn from the heart....
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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[Friday, October 27, 2006
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Hello Welcome Back....
Its been ages since i've updated my blog.And now its back again with tagboard back in it again.
So what happen fot the past 2 months or so?Possibly i cant write everything that happen right?
But during this 2 months many many incidents and events,both happy and sad had occured but the most happiest thing that happens to me is when i purchase this thing for someone's birthday..SOO CUTE!!!!
Hahha...Ok2,Next week i'll be transferring to tampines mart pizza hut(previous was Bedok) and join my supervisor,Adha...
To all my homies,see u in school.
To syafiq,shirgin,shireen,ifa,happy mugging for "0"
To my riders form bedok,happy working at ubi pizza hut.
To bedok pizza hut,happy training at siglap and goodbye to u all
To Tampines mart pizza hut,here i come...
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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[Wednesday, August 23, 2006
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Okay yesterday i followed ashburn and syafiq to record their songs at newton there.But before that,i went to POSB with burn to withdraw money.And while we're waiting suddenly this aunite came to me and said,got ghost at your house you know.got someone die and follow you.....
I was like WHAT THE HELL???? but then i know that there's a spirit inside my house but i dun care coz me and the spirit is friends already for staying together for 1 year... hahahahha...
okay we went to newton and bla bla bla AND WAH!!! guees what??? i saw rahimah rahim,the veteran singer in person...wahh.... and after that she treat me and my friends a WAFFLE WITH ICE CREAM!!!hahaha its been a long time since i have that...
and after going to newton,we study at st hilda at 12.. and bla bla bla thats the ende of story...hahahaha....
Frestoinc still searching for the truth in life
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THE REAL ME, I GUESS??
Name:Aliff Ridzuan Bin Abdullah a.k.a Fresto.Inc
Age:18
Birthday:30th August 1988
School:Temasek Polytechnic(2nd Year)
Course:Diploma In Engineering(Aerospace Electronics)
Horoscope:Virgo
Email:Krooq_Fresto@hotmail.com
Hobby:Sleep,Smoke And Think
Favourite Food:Chicken Rice,Roti Prata,Bread,Malay Kuih
Favourite Drink:Teh Tarik,Kopi Katai,Bandung,Mug,Caramel Frappuccino
Favourite Brand:Adidas
Favourite Cigarette:Malboro,Gold Coast,Madison,Butterfly
Favourite Hang Out Place:Techno,Itas,Tp Library,Al-Kader,Esplanade,Fountain Of Wealth,Queensway Shopping Centre,A Dome Near My House
Favourite Colour:Black,Red,White
Favourite Phrase:Secret,too many
Favourite Thing:My Handphone,My Music
Favourite Rapper:Tupac,Eminem,The Game,Bonethugs-N-Harmony
Favourite Band:X-Japan
Favourite Song(Hip-Hop):Lose Yourself,Sing For The Moment,Life Goes On,Toy Soldier,Changes,We Ain't,Till I Collapse,Take Me Home,Crossroad,
Favourite Song(Rock):Art Of Life,Nymphetamine,S.O.S,Endless Rain,Say Anything,The Last Song,Tears,Weekend,Speed Of Light
OK here is something more about me
I Believe In These 3 Principles And I Live By These Principles;Honesty,Trustworthiness,Loyalty
I Observe By Seeing And I Chose With My Heart.I Chose Who To Be Friend With And Whose Not
I Believe That What Goes Around Comes Around
I Believe In Living In Hardness First And Enjoy Peacefulness Later
I Dont' Share My Problems With Someone I'm Not Comfortable With
I Don't Believe In Best Friends
I Trust Other People Easily
I Don't Really Care About My Health
I'm Sucks In English
I Have Confidence In Everything Except Girls
Soemtimes I Love To Be Left Alone
Is There Anthing Else You Wanna Know????
PS:First and foremost,i would like to thank Nurul Fitriyanna and Haryana for helping me out on creating this blog(i know its not much but a help can change evrything right?) Thank you soo much..Hahahaha..
The purpose of this blog is actually not to talk about myself like what most people do but i just wanna share with you guys about the
things that happen around us and also based on my true experience. This is my first time blogging so i hope you guys understand.
And also my english is very poor(you can ask shahila to vow for it... hahahhaa)... So yah.. Thats all...And also do enjoy reading it...
Comments are invited with open arms... (",)
MY FRIENDS AND HOW THEY'RE CONNECTED TO ME
Yana-Ashburn's Girlfriend
Ashburn-My real homie and also my supplier for all things,esp ciggerate
Shahila-The one i like to tease a lot
Abu-My RUGGED friend
Fizz-The one who nvr fails to make other people laugh
Hafizah-My angelic counsellor
Fit-My pri sch friend
Bob-My teddy bear
Syed-My friend who is good to share things with
Aisha-My sec friend
Zul-The flirt and NOOB!!!
Wan-The psychophatic among all
EXITS
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BIG SHOUTOUTS
A big shoutouts to my homies out there;ashburn,abu,haziq,suhail,adil,wan,
hisham,syafiq,zameer,bob,naufal,zul,boon,dan,
fizz,syed,and many more.Thanx for everything all this while.
Will keep u guys inside my heart forever.
Also a big thanks to Revolute Nation. Even though we're apart, the memories will never leave the heart.If not for you guys,i wouldn't be what i am today.
A big special thanks to ashburn and Wankast. Yeah both of u really help me alot when i was troubled.Both of you i swear i will never forget your kindness.
A Special Sincere thanks to my mum for raising me up to what i am right now.Even though we are not in good terms for more than 10 years,but i'm breathing in this world all
because of you.If i could turn back the time,i would not let that happen in the past and hope that we're a happy family.But now the pain is done,and whats done cannot be undone
A Thanks to my stepfather.If not because of you maybe i will live happily with my sis and mum.But because of you i know what hatred is and how is it like to live in this world with no love from a father.
Thanks to God,for showing me the right way to live and prevent me from going astray like what happend 4-5 years ago.I'm really glad for that.
Last but not least,i would like to thank myself for still standing tall here.I'm glad that i overcome many obstacles in life and that make myself matured enough to think.
To my enemies out there,if u wish me dead,then u just have to wait. This is my life and i will ive it how i wanna live.Motherfuckers wanna fuck it come and get it.
Life is really a challenge to overcome.........